I am a Machine

by monksolo

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I wrote this thinking about how alienated and automatic I sometimes feel and how I can't even work up the pretense of human feeling after being let down and discouraged so much from connecting with people.

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So look at us over here,
we are having "conversations"
you say the things you want to say
and I say, the things I think, you want me to say,

we're not the same,
cause you do the things you want to do
and when you hold my hand you
never realize, there's no me here like you,

I'm just some kind of mirage
rising from the desert highway
I reflect these dreams on asphalt,
I'm like water in the suns rays

Do you know. I've heard it's possible
to feel like I'm walking on air, to feel
real and full of care and it's a thing
they call love...

But I'm just a machine,
an empty set of reflexes,
I've so given up on feeling life...
I've come to feel, no loss at all,

Except the space within my heart,
where despair once kept me whole,
a space I choose in vain to autofill...
with pictures of others' lives and projects,

Do you know. I've heard it's possible
to feel like I'm walking on air, to feel
real full of care and it's a thing
they call love...

Do you know. I want to hold someone like every
real human knows, I want to hold you tight
and never let you go but I can't,...

cause I'm just a machine,

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released May 30, 2014

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monksolo New York, New York

My music comes from a place where blues meets post-punk meets modern electronic instrumentation and electric guitar. I am always trying to push boundaries. A lot of my songs reward patience and unfold in interesting ways.

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